SAD and #FatshionFebruary

Not to run this point into the ground, but Winter is really fucking hard. I live in the Midwest where Winters are grey and icy and the days are incredibly short. For a long time, I just thought that I hated the holidays, or starting a new year was just horrible. Then my therapist told me about Seasonal Affective Disorder.

I’m not a sad person. Anxious? Panic stricken? Yes, definitely. But depressed? No, that one is unfamiliar. The last 5 years have been different. I feel suffocated, exhausted, unable to cope with the slightest amount of adversity. As November starts, I begin to withdraw, and by February I’m screaming obscenities at mother nature while scowling from my front door as my third takeout meal of the day arrives.

This year, I ran away. I spent most of January in California. A small part of my family is there, and they are incredibly centering, being there felt wonderful. But as we all know, you can never really run away from your problems.

I’m back home, and cursing the last of the Winter days. But the ground is slowly getting warmer, and every day the sun stays out just a little bit longer, and damn it I’ve got #fatshionfebruary to look forward to. So I’m committing to getting up and getting dressed. I’m committing to showing off new outfits, getting out in the sunshine and twirling around while my partner tells me I’m adorable, and I’m committing to connecting with people via my love of fat fashion.

I’ll be using the hashtags #fatshionfebruary and #fatgirlflow on instagram through the month and I’d love if all of you joined me! If you’re not on instagram, I’d love to see you post outfits on my facebook page!

I wish I had something wise and amazing to say about overcoming Seasonal Affective Disorder, but I just don’t. I haven’t figured it out yet, and there’s been no magic cure all for me. I wake up with sunlight showering me, sit in front of sun lamps, get my vitamin D checked, and I still struggle. I’ll get it figured out some day, until then… I’m coping with fashion.

You can check out my huge round up of plus size off the shoulder tops in the video below!

Top | Jeans | Booties | Jacket | Clutch (similar)

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  • Trisha
    February 9, 2017 at 7:09 pm

    You look great for being sad! And where can I get those booties?!

    • fatgirlflow
      February 12, 2017 at 7:32 pm

      They’re linked down at the bottom of the post! They’re from Amazon!!!! <3

  • Marissa
    February 10, 2017 at 11:26 am

    Thank you so much for always being so transparent about your mental health <3 mental illness is so, so hard and there are still so many people who just. don't. get it. At our last session, my therapist ended with some simple yet profound advice: be kind to yourself. And so I wanted to pass that advice on to you. Be kind to yourself, be patient with yourself, don't minimize your feelings as insignificant. And at the end of the day, know that your openness is helping so many other people who feel like nobody else understands what they're going through. Much love to you <3 <3 <3

  • Ellen Dayan
    February 12, 2017 at 8:48 am

    Hi There! I had so much trouble with SAD that I moved from Western New York to Arizona. Right before I left, though, I found out about light box therapy and was ready to purchase one–pretty inexpensive and helpful. You turn it on and sit there with it shining into your face. Maybe an idea for you… I love your great attitude about life, warts and all. And I love the off-the-shoulder styles you’re showing here, too. Sending you sunshine and warmth from AZ!

  • Carolina Tojal
    February 20, 2017 at 8:55 am

    I think you are a inspiration for all of us. I had troubles with myself when I was younger an I still think I need to work in that every single day. No one is perfect and you show me how to love myself a little bit more. In the past I was completely broken, and I had to fix myself, and I wasn’t the one who should be fixed. Society should be fixed, and you make it a better place for people like me, who were broken and now they are fix themselves. Thank you, from my heart. Ps: sorry for my bad english, I’m portuguese.

    • fatgirlflow
      February 20, 2017 at 9:19 pm

      Your english is perfect, and you are an absolute doll <3 thank you so much xoxo

  • Amanda
    April 21, 2017 at 1:25 pm

    I just discovered you on YouTube and I absolutely love your videos. You are so upbeat and real. Wish I could send you some Florida Sunshine during the winter to brighten your day! What’s holding you to your midwestern location?

    • fatgirlflow
      April 21, 2017 at 9:26 pm

      oh you’re so sweet!!!! I LOVE Kansas – my family and my support system is here, but I definitely need to take better care of myself and start scheduling some sunny vacations through the winter months!!!!

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