Not to run this point into the ground, but Winter is really fucking hard. I live in the Midwest where Winters are grey and icy and the days are incredibly short. For a long time, I just thought that I hated the holidays, or starting a new year was just horrible. Then my therapist told me about Seasonal Affective Disorder.
I’m not a sad person. Anxious? Panic stricken? Yes, definitely. But depressed? No, that one is unfamiliar. The last 5 years have been different. I feel suffocated, exhausted, unable to cope with the slightest amount of adversity. As November starts, I begin to withdraw, and by February I’m screaming obscenities at mother nature while scowling from my front door as my third takeout meal of the day arrives.
This year, I ran away. I spent most of January in California. A small part of my family is there, and they are incredibly centering, being there felt wonderful. But as we all know, you can never really run away from your problems.
I’m back home, and cursing the last of the Winter days. But the ground is slowly getting warmer, and every day the sun stays out just a little bit longer, and damn it I’ve got #fatshionfebruary to look forward to. So I’m committing to getting up and getting dressed. I’m committing to showing off new outfits, getting out in the sunshine and twirling around while my partner tells me I’m adorable, and I’m committing to connecting with people via my love of fat fashion.
I’ll be using the hashtags #fatshionfebruary and #fatgirlflow on instagram through the month and I’d love if all of you joined me! If you’re not on instagram, I’d love to see you post outfits on my facebook page!
I wish I had something wise and amazing to say about overcoming Seasonal Affective Disorder, but I just don’t. I haven’t figured it out yet, and there’s been no magic cure all for me. I wake up with sunlight showering me, sit in front of sun lamps, get my vitamin D checked, and I still struggle. I’ll get it figured out some day, until then… I’m coping with fashion.
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