This is the first time I’ve ever modeled for a professional photographer (excluding my wedding, but I was not modeling!), and god damn what a way to experience having my picture taken!!!! My plus size boudoir shoot was everything I could’ve wanted.
Many of you know that I have been a nude model for many years. I prefer the term “sex worker”, as my job did not just involve nude modeling, but it was the bulk of what I did. I’m not a stranger to being naked in pictures. I know what my body looks like. I am very familiar with how I look from different angles. But this was different. This is the first time I’ve ever had my picture taken for ME. I wasn’t posing to please someone who may be buying my photos, I got to pick lingerie that was my style and that I loved (thanks Chubby Cartwheels!), I had a body positive and encouraging photographer who captured my personality perfectly, and above all else I had this amazing empowering experience where I got to take my clothes off and say “this is my body and I love it!”.
Even better than getting my own picture taken, was having the opportunity to see my best friend absolutely come alive in front of the camera. She’s never done anything quite like this, and I actually remember the first time she took a selfie with a lot of cleavage in it because she immediately text it to me and said “omg! Look I took a sexy photo!!!!”… I think she may have been fully clothed. I did my photos first and she watched and commented on how natural I looked and how it didn’t seem to bother me to be wandering around a fairly public place with mesh panties on. Then it was her turn. Aly has ups and downs with her (bangin’) body. Most of us do, of course. While Kelsey, our amazing photographer, began taking Aly’s pictures she looked at me and kept whispering “I don’t know what to do! What do I do?”. She looked beautiful, as always. She was holding her breath and trying to hold every pose perfectly. I told her to breath naturally. She took a few big breaths, the camera kept on clicking, and Kelsey gently encouraged her.
I feel a little bit weepy writing this now, because seeing Aly relax into all her gorgeous glory with Kelsey’s help was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. Admittedly, I have been a little skeptical of boudoir photos until now. I have been naked in front of a camera before. I didn’t get it, what could possibly be so liberating about this? But I saw it in Aly. Her eyes lit up when Kelsey would show her some of the shots they were getting. I could see that Aly was seeing the person I always see when I look at her. I remembered that some times it’s hard to see yourself for who you are. By the end of Aly’s shoot she was standing on top of an antique sofa in stilettos and a fur coat giving me the most serious Rhianna vibes I’ve ever felt. It was magic.
So, turns out I love boudoir. I’m so happy I got to experience this and I’m so grateful that I got to do it with such a fantastic photographer. I hope all of you get the chance to feel as amazing as I felt both that day, and the day I got to see the finished product.
Kelsey wrote an amazing blog post on her website and there are lots more pics from my shoot, feel free to check them out!
Lingerie – Chubby Cartwheels
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